This is crazy!!!

Not long after we began the adoption process, I had a freak-out moment.  It was one of those moments when all of your worries, fears, and stress factors collide and you begin to question your sanity regarding recent decisions you have made.



My freak-out moment happened to be while I was in the shower shampooing my hair.  There I stood, head full of fruit-scented lather, crying out to God saying, "This is crazy, God!  What am I thinking? How will we ever afford this?  Can I really handle adopting a child?  Should I be doing this?".

What happened next is not something that can be described in detail because it is hard to explain.  I didn't hear an audible voice but in a totally real way, God spoke to my heart the moment these questions left my lips.  His response was, "No, YOU shouldn't be doing this.......WE will do this together."

I was humbled and overwhelmed by his response to my concerns.  Of course, I can't do this alone.  God has promised over and over to be with us in what he calls us to do.  Joshua 1:9 popped into my head: "Have I not commanded you?  Be strong and courageous.  Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go".....and I'm pretty sure that even includes China!